What did I do?

THis post comes to you courtesy of a cell in bed and melatonin. This morning I stepped on the scale before I went to the hospital to visit my brother.  Up 3 pounds from the shitty food I have been putting in my body. Then on top of the shit food that has already effected my weight, I add more today. @@ at myself here. I am taking a stand!! If I continue this path I will be right back where I started. I may not be under 200 yet but I like looking in the mirror at my face and not seeing a double chin. I have to really concentrate and look for it to see it now. I cannot see my collar bones but I can feel them with my hands. I cannot wait to show them to you actually. I think I have really short ones compared to others. Makes me think I need to rethink my stance on saying that I am not built to be petite even though my height is.

Another blow at work today delivered by fax. It seems the President\owner of the buisness I work for is retired as of today. THe accountant is now the President. The VP quit Tuesday as you may recall. Tomorrow (Friday) is my seven year anniversary. I am not worried about the company folding. More so about the unknown the future holds.

I had a dream a few weeks ago. Typically dreams of this caliber means things to me. Well so many things are happening at once I cannot figure out which one the dream is referring to.  EEKK

On a brighter note the bowel obstruction my brother has is no longer a full one. The ng tube overnight helped it become a partial blockage now. Treatment is continuing with the ng tube till it is gone. No matter how many days it takes. He is not thrilled. No shower or food\drink for over 5 days now. With the tube in he is unable to do much but lay there and watch tv. He can talk, but it is hard for him. I hope tonight does the trick. HIs baby momma (baby is 21 lol) is coming up for the weekend to see him. She is a nurse at a VA place down south so that will be good for him.

I Wonder if I can link this picture from my phone in here. Hmmm