Self Perception

Self Perception

I have wanted to do a blog post about this for a long time now.  I always assumed I had a poor self perception of myself.  Apparently I must have a decent one.  I might see a picture of myself that I think is horrible but I accept it.  Because I know just because I think I look horrible someone else may not.  I just try not to dwell on that kind of stuff.  That said, I am sad because I have to distance myself from someone that I really enjoy knowing online.   I cannot handle the negative self view that they have of themselves- It truly upsets me.

I am fat,  I know I am fat.   I could never say I love my body.  I sure as hell do not hate it though. When I was thin (yeah, for a whole 8 months) I still felt fat.  I have seen countless people say that they felt fat at their thinnest.  I just cannot ride that train of self loathe.  Maybe I am naive or maybe I have just grown past that point in my life.  Maybe it is because I have been chubby from about age 6 and up.

I do have those days where I feel really cute.  Then catch a glimpse at myself in the mirror out somewhere and do that internal "UGH"  I do not dwell on it though.  I think those thoughts and move on.  I have a beautiful family and a loving husband so I must have done something right. They love me for me- not for how fat or thin I am.





Happy Valentine's Day from my family to yours!!